Maybe I want to deny any god. Goodly or badly it makes sense to me to refuse god. A being so cruel demands severe retribution. Sure I may have this wrong. But if there is a god he or she or whatever phucked me over so hard that forgiveness is beyond me. Holding grudges since third grade has tired me greatly.
And 70 years is enough, I've proved that I can take the punishment and more longevity isn't a worthy goal.
Yes, I've suffered under Depression lately. Anyone who equates "feeling Depressed" with Severe Depression is too ignorant. I promised my shrink that I would talk to him before taking that final step. Rats.
Please disregard this post if you find it too insulting.
So you only believe
in a God that hates you? Anyone who who isn't depressed as your depressed isn't really depressed. Your kinda cutting yourself off from man and god, are you not?
As I've stated else where I no longer think that understanding is more important than love. But I still think that judgement without understanding is folly, As understanding without love is just dust.
Love is an emotion, but it is also a journey, an undertaking, deep well and a high mountain.
Love is the language God speaks to us in.
And My friend there you are with both fingers in your ears.
When he speaks not to our ears but our hearts.
So stop creating negative emotions for your self to suffer..
How do I stop what I've always done?
By realizing that you are doing it. It is not being done to you, you are doing it to yourself.
Your mad because you don't understand.
Let me ask you, who are you that god needs to explain his actions?
What standing do you have to make such demands
"Where were you when I created the heavens and the earth?
Try to remember what insignificant specks of dust we are!
No one is born into understanding, we all struggle with it.
the bottom line seems to be unhappy is the man who insists that
the world explains herself to him. As she never will.
But she most certainly reveals herself to her most ardent admirers.
To those of a disposition to listen within their hearts To the songs
she sings to her lover, lord and master, to her God.Your a part of her song
If you feel unloved, when was the last time you undertook to love this world?
You have not failed to understand any more than the rest of us. You have failed to love.
You don't need a bunch of half baked ideas, you need to focus upon one idea. Your not fulfilling your primary function, to love then do what your love wills you to do.
George I thought we had an understanding, That we would be there for each other. We will both be dead soon enough.
While we live let us celebrate each other. Let us strive to increase the love in this world and as best we might to tend to her wounds.
No need to speak of what others do. We need only concern our selves with what we do.
Now quit your whining and get on with your loving, there is an entire world out there in need of your love, If God wanted us to know more of him, we would.
We know and see only what our natures and spirits are meant to know and see.
But there are no limits to the love we are allowed to give, love is an ever flowing fountain and no one is forbidden to drink of it.
Lighten up my brother we are very near the end Lets laugh and make a good show of it Lets show the world how a good death is made, with love still shining in our tired old eyes. ":O}